Pumpkin Carving Party Eve : annual party traditions and a chaotic trip to ASDA

I love pumpkins and carving pumpkins and pumpkin food and pumpkin candles, and in 2022 we decided to throw a pumpkin Carving Party.  

It was raining, and we bought a gazebo, and we put our kitchen table outside and had about 8ish families over to carve pumpkins.  We made pumpkin snacks.  It was fun!

We didn't do a party in 2023 (due to imminent arrival of twins) but we did somehow have a party in 2024 (with nearly 1 year old twins??) We invited 15 families.  9 came, 15 kids and 20 adults (at least, that's what the RSVP situation was).

Tomorrow we are hosting the same party again. I have decided I love hosting the same party every year.  It's easy, we know what the set up us.  People who come year after year know what they are getting into (it's a bring your own pumpkin affair).  We bought some new pumpkin-guts bins and sharpies this year,and massively reduced the food offering (hot dog mummies still on the list, and cracker spiders, and a halloween spooky fruit salad).

This morning we went to ASDA to buy our pumpkins and some more halloween-y decorations.  The kids asked if they could wear costumes, which of course they could.

I am sometimes so entertained by what our family must look like to the rest of the world.  This is normal, right?

I had a somewhat secret ambition to buy some more autumn decoration for the house, which I did in the form of this discount wooden sign:

Which now sits on our mantle with my autumnal candles.  I also got a giant stuffed pumpkin, because the kids had taken my tiny crocheted pumpkins and my medium stuffed pumpkin so it seemed like we needed more stuffed pumpkins in the house.  

The afternoon was spent playing dress up and tidying the house and then making the house a chaos mess again. 

Mostly I am excited for the party tomorrow.

We always run the party as a "drop in" for 3 hours in the afternoon on the last Sunday before Halloween.  This works well for a few reasons:

• We can invite a lot of people so people can come and leave at anytime
• It's definitely not over a meal time.
• It's always clock change day, which makes the day awful and weird, so it's nice to have a fun afternoon activity to drag everyone through to the later bedtime

We also usually have one family stay for dinner with us after (and help clean up) which makes it even more fun.

This year we invited 16 families, 11 have said yes, with an estimated 19 kids and 19 adults.  It always seems like it will be too much (we don't have a giant house) but it's always worked OK before, so fingers crossed it works OK again.

And if it doesn't... then I guess people won't come back next year.

Do you (or have you ever) throw(n) the same party year after year?  Have you ever been invited to the same party year after year?

I wish I had another year on year party I could throw.  Like a Valentine's Day party.  Some other minor holiday in a rubbish time of year.

Hello From Friday - to do lists, new friends, priorities

I couldn't decide what the naptime priority was on my list of things to do, so I decided to write a blog post first

I wonder if there is some Kendra Adachi / Lazy Genius approach I could use?  I have about 1.5 to 2 hours of nap time at most.  

Laundry does need to be hung up, but it could probably sit in the washer untill tonight, but also it only takes 10 minutes

Hoovering is a good idea because the floor is gross.  But also, the floor will soon be gross again so I may as well wait and do it tonight or over the weekend.

Packing up parcels is needed - I have two big returns to make - but it's so boring.  It probably takes 5 minutes.  But it needs to be done by 4:30 so I can make it to the post office before it closes.  

Budget it getting out of control... usually I update twice a month but I haven't done October.  There are a lot of receipts on a magnet on the fridge (we keep not obvious receipts so I can code them correctly)

I want to write a blog post, so this is what I'm doing first

Andy is in charge of recycling, but there seems to be a growing collection of glass on the windowsill and the recycling is full (and smells somewhat like fish, oops).  But also, if I wait until tonight then he can do it.

I think the order will be Blog, Packing Parcels, Hang Laundry, Do Budget.

But then I start thinking... shouldn't I do a workout? Yoga? Strength?  I could do a 20 minute sprint on the peloton... but it would be better to start that sooner so that twins don't wake up during it.  I don't mind them waking up when I'm in the middle of tidying.  I do mind if it's 10 minutes into a 15 minute workout. 

Or I could sit down and read my book.  Or just sit down and relax? Have a cup of tea and a pumpkin biscuit? My mom brought me Pumpkin Joe Joes from Trader Joes and I am savouring each of them

Random aside - Trader Joes is the shop I miss most in the USA.  Other shops on the list - REI, Whole Foods, and New Seasons (a grocery store in the Portland area).

On a totally different note, I had a very bloggable story morning.

The story starts over the summer, when I met a really nice couple at a not-local park but they lived locally to us.  They had a daughter the same age as the twins, and they had lived in the USA for 5 years.  I thought they seemed really cool but I didn't ask for their phone numbers because I felt like that was quite forward for a random park meet, and also I knew I didn't really have much free time to make friends.

Recently I've thought of them a few times as I now have Fridays off work and still don't know many people with two year olds.

This morning I went to a local super cute soft play and there was a guy who looked oddly familiar and so did his daughter, and of course it was the guy I met at the park! I told him I wished I had got his wife's number, and then we swapped numbers and he seemed very keen to meet up again as he and his wife have alternate Fridays off.  I'm not sure we will be best friends but I am so pleased I ran into them again.

When we first met them I told Andy I wished I had gotten their number and he said "well you will probably see them again and then you can get numbers" and he was right.  And honestly, I thought about how if I was on facebook or WhatsApp or other things I could have probably digitally connected before now, but this way felt so cool and organic in a way that the digital world would not.

Then at the soft play a mom said she thought she knew me from the local climbing centre, and I remembered her and we had a great chat and it turns out she used to own an run a vegan restaurant I loved! We did not swap numbers but I hope I'll run into her again sometime as well.  It was cool to feel like there is a community of lovely people around.  I sometimes feel like potential friends are everywhere.

Here are Aubrey & Clara enjoying snack at the soft play:

Now it's 1:30 and I better crack on with my to do list.  I just realized I forgot to add planning to the list.  But I did update my dream naptime to do list and it turns out I have 2 hours of dreams to accomplish and 1 hour left.  I did also realize that I pretty much have to choose between weekly planning / Budget vs. doing sport...

In good news, there's not really a wrong decision.

Do you end up with random difficult to prioritize to do lists?  If you moved away from where you live, what store would you miss the most?  Do you like Pumpkin Joe-Joes?

A really random post about protien and food and running and sports

I've started eating breakfast and I think it's helping with my energy levels during the day.  I'm trying to eat within 30 minutes of waking up, and 30 minutes before & after exercising.

My "breakfast" probably has some hipster name, but it's chia seeds, flaxseed, and ground almonds, left overnight with oat milk (if prepared) or just made in the morning (if not prepared).  People go on and on about protein but maybe "people" are right.   I'm trying to pick more protein rich foods for my meals.  It turns out these foods have lots of protein (so I learned from my vegan friend).  I even measured my overnight sludge today (probably need a better name for this) and it has 17 grams of protein.

I've also been eating salads for lunch.  Salads are good foods to eat at my desk.  I will put almost anything in this salad.  Last week I tried adding tempeh which was tasty.  I'll also add leftover veggie burgers, or leftover beans... or whatever is leftover.  Also tomato and lettuce and cucumber, or sometimes not lettuce because it's expensive.  Also chia seeds and cashews and pumpkin seeds.  And this italian dressing from Two Peas and their Pod. 

I know no one came to this blog for photos of salads but it's happening...

My work has asked us to use copilot more so today I asked copilot to figure out how much protein was in my salad:

The major adjustment that I'm trying to make with my food is to eat when I'm hungry, or when I'm struggling to focus in work, because often that's a sign that I'm hungry. Today I was fairly productive in work, which might have been a result of my copilot approved salad?

I'm also trying to get 3 strength workouts and 2 SIT (Sprint Interval Training) workouts in every week.  I would love to also do yoga and swimming once a week, or 10 minutes of stretching a day, or some other great idea thing that would be good for me... but if I could do my SIT and my Strength that would definitely be a great success.

I have given up on running for now.  I don't have 2-3 hours on the weekend for a fun run, and it's dark and wet and cold during the week.  I don't see any real benefit from running a few miles once a week, because the part of running I like is the part where I run for a long time.  I think I'll be taking a break from the running until the weather improves and maybe start building distance again in the spring... when I might enter my first ever trail half marathon....

Do you eat the same thing for lunch every day?  Are you a breakfast person? A eat when you wake up person? Do you fuel before and after workouts or do you forgetfully chase your day in circles like I often do?

Time Tracking, Other Tracking, Not Tracking and a random aside about suppliments.

I think I'm taking a break from time tracking.

I have been tracking my (on a time tracking spreadsheet excel, like a nerd) since February 2024. 

It's interesting! There's a lot of data (maybe?).  There's a lot of time.  I've done a lot of things with that time.

And yet it's started to feel like a chore.  I don't wake up and do my time log like I used to.  I don't think I'm learning anything from it at the moment.  In fact, it's often making me feel like I have abundant time and non abundant energy or ability or logistical opportunity.

A young colleague of mine said she didn't understand how I possibly did "everything" - meaning having a job and young 4 kids.  I told her that my job is only 32 hours a week and there are 24 hours in a day so really my job is basically 1 and a half days a week... barely any time at all.

I do genuinely feel that way.... but I'm not sure it's great for me to be so unaligned from the common perceptions of work/life balance.  

I stopped filling out my line a day journal about two months ago, when I decided I didn't want to relive the last 4 years of autumn sickness and newborn times and covid lockdowns.

To quote Spinal Tap... "Too much ****** Perspective"

Anyways there are things I still want to track.  I've been tracking my cycles and it's kind of fascinating and somewhat helpful for understanding how I wildly swing from feeling like the coolest human ever to being the most neurotic human ever.

I've been tracking some habits too

I have a goal to do 100 strength work outs this year.  The Half Marathon training really dampened my strength training.  I'm currently at 69 for the year.  I'll have to do 3 strength workouts a week to get to 100, which doesn't seem impossible but does seem improbable.  I may also need to look at Strava and see if I missed any workouts on my tracker.

I like seeing how when cardio goes up strength goes down, and knowing that I'm not doing nothing on my non strength days... I'm just not doing strength.

Randomly, without tracking, I started taking vitamins every day.  I've been reading Next Level by Stacy Sims and it has some fascinating info on aging and nutrition and I decided I may as well try taking Creatine and Vitamin D and a multivitamin because it probably can hurt and if it helps with energy and brain fog then that's even better.

Also, maybe if I'm not time tracking I'll do more paper planner stuff.  I like writing in a planner.  It brings me joy.  If I'm organized about it then it also keeps me organized about life.  

Have you ever trakced your time or your hobbies?  How long did you do it for?  Do you feel more limited by time or energy or logistics?  Or all three?

Work trip - walking adventures, eating adventures, thoughts etc.

I'm currently posting from a train, on my way home from 2 nights in Leeds.  I so enjoyed a bit of space to think, although I also felt like it took me 36 of my 48 hours to decompress enough to start thinking.  Also, I was traveling for work so I did spend my days in the office as well.  My first office day felt exhausting, which I think is a side effect of being primarily work from home. 

First - Walks!  

Elisabeth does a bloggy walking challenge every October and I love following all the bloggy walkers around the world.  

On Monday I didn't get much of a walk in, but I had 20 minutes to walk around Kings Cross Station before my evening train to Leeds

Inside the station there was a random non-train queue, and of course it was platform 9 and 3/4!  So many muggles!

On Tuesday I finished work around 5:45 and decided to go for a quick walk through Leeds in the evening.  I hadn't explored Leeds before and I didn't realize how big it is - it's the 5th largest metro area in the UK.

During my walk I saw a recognizable sign... but one I did not expect to see in the Leeds:

Chick-fil-a??? in Leeds? Bizarre.  I had also just read Suzanne's post on likes which included a nod to Chick-fil-a so it felt extra bizarre to see this American fast food joint in the British wild.

Food

On my first day in Leeds I went down to the hotel breakfast and didn't feel like any of it was actually food.  My kids would love it, the weird fried eggs and sausages and white bread, but I've been trying to eat more protein and non processed food recently and hotel breakfasts are definitely not that.  I found a local cafe and ordered a granola bowl and a latte and had the most AMAZING breakfast

I went back again the next day and also I have decided I need to make myself delicious breakfast bowls from now on.  It had Cacao Nibs! and chia seeds sprinkled on top.  And other crunchy delicious things.  

Also, it cost £9.50 for this breakfast, which I felt was a great bargain for such deliciousness.

This morning I was writing in my planner and eating this breakfast while The Postal Service "Such Great Heights" was playing and I realized I was having a perfect moment.  I sat and enjoyed everything about it - the cafe, the ambiance, the food, the quiet.  No one asking me things.  Nowhere to go.  No to do list.  Just breakfast and a full day of work ahead.  It was glorious.

I also went out to dinner by myself on this trip, something I've somewhat dreaded previously.  This time, I loved it.  The quiet, eating slowly, watching people, thinking... it was dreamy.  It would have been better if Andy could have been there, but dinner alone is actually kind of awesome.  Maybe that's a sign I'm getting old(er)

Some realizations from this trip

• I really love travel and adventure and right now I don't do much of it
• I'm not sure incorporating kids into things I like is a recipe for success.  I loved my dinner alone.  I don't love being at restaurants with young kids.
• I live where I do because it's less than an hour from lots of beautiful places, and I almost never see any of them.  Maybe that's just the stage of life I'm in.
• Being home for nap time every day between 12 and 2 is highly adventure limiting.  Again, maybe it's just the stage I'm in.
• I spend a lot of time in my own home.  
• I spend a lot of time thinking about logistics and plans (short and long term) for other people.
• I spend a lot of time thinking about what to feed kids and others and need to spend some fraction of that time figuring out what I am going to eat and planning my own intentional food

It's been a nice and productive few days away.  I am lucky I get to travel for work, and that I have the childcare support structure to make work trips possible.

Monday: A long weekend (in feeling, not time) - Lots of young kids, melon fights, and some bloggy complaining

Sometimes I find having a lot of young kids (6, 5, 1 & 1) very tiring. This weekend was one of those weekends.  

I had the distinctively 168 hour / Laura Vanderkam thought that I currently work 32 hours a week (If I'm in work all week, which I haven't been for 3 weeks in a row).  I do my own sport (gym with gym buddy, circus class with other gym buddy, and any of my own running and yoga) around 8 hours a week.  I spend about 55 hours a week sleeping.  

The math shows I spend 73 hours a week parenting and managing a house and actively watching kids and doing all the stuff that family life involves.

I chose to have kids, and kids on good days (many days!) they bring clouds of joy.  I'm also eternally thankful I don't have newborn twins.  My kids are all healthy.  They sleep.  Problems are generally simple.  This is all good.

But also, toddlers are hard, and TWO toddlers is hard.  It's physically demanding and mentally exhausting.  They will be 2 at the end of this month.  They are amazingly independent: they can walk up and down stairs, open doors, they climb in and out of their own highchairs.  They feed themselves with utensils and Aubrey can even serve herself her own food at the table.

In the meantime, I have two other great kids who I feel I barely pay attention to because I am often maxed out taking care of twins.  Even when the twins aren't around (ie, if Andy takes them out) I am then desperate to get some of the pile of house and life admin done... sort the toys, do the dishes, prep the dinner, rotate the clothes, update the budget... everything.

On Saturday we had planned a trip to the pumpkin patch.  We have been every year and I booked tickets.  Lily asked for pumpkin waffles for breakfast.

I woke up at 6, prepped waffles. Chopped melon.

A screaming fight over melon ensued between the 5 and 6 year old regarding who got more pieces.  I had cut up an entire cantaloupe but it was apparently not enough and not fair.  In the midst of this, the 5 year old told me she did not like these waffles (the ones she asked for and I had spent 20 minutes making at 6am).

I definitely did not respond with kindness.  I told the kids we are never eating melon or waffles again.  Then I changed it to "we are never having melon or waffles for a month" which is more reasonable but also devolved into a screaming argument.

I looked at the rest of the weekend: We had morning pumpkin patch and an afternoon family party, followed by the 6 year old's birthday on Sunday where he would be out all day with Andy, and I would be home with Lily and twins all day again.  I told Andy I needed some me time and so I went for a 10 mile run.  

After the run I was too tired to be grumpy at the kids, or at anyone.  Success?

I'm currently on a work trip this week, two nights in Leeds.  I visited Leeds 3 years ago, around this time, and enjoyed it immensely.  I'm hoping I'll get the same thrill and distance and rest this time and come back with more energy and excitement for the remaining hours of my non work non sleep week.  

Anyways, no great realizations at the end of this blog post.  Sorry it's a bit of a whiney one! I know my life is filled with luck and opportunity and good things.  The sun even came out on Sunday...

They stopped fighting long enough for this photo

This Week - Reading, Swimming, Circus Skills, Weird Eating Patterns, Halloween Prep

This week has been *busy*.  Everyone has been healthy and it's been great to have our nanny back. I felt tired going into this week and still feel like I'm fighting off illness.  I also feel generally behind in all the life admin things.  I forgot to text birthday messages, I have a pile of kid party invites needing replies, and I've been eating most of my food at 10am in one giant meal which is probably weird and bad for me. 

On Monday night I went for a swim as a half marathon recovery and then I finished reading What Kind of Paradise which was a page turner and also... I wasn't super happy with the ending.  Maybe that's the problem with page turners?  So much about it was great, except for the part where I couldn't turn any more pages.

On Tuesday I had a post recovery massage which was amazing.  I've decided I'm going to book a monthly massage for myself.  Why not??  

In the evening Andy and I had our logistics meeting and we planned our pumpkin carving party invitation list.   We've thrown a drop in pumpkin carving party almost every year since 2021 and it's generally a lot of fun and pretty easy to do the same party every year.  We put out tables, buckets, pumpkin carving knives, and snacks, and people come and carve pumpkins.

We normally send paper invites because we love an invitation, but they have become expensive to print and even more expensive to send.  This year I will just invite people via text.  It's also odd to look at old invite lists and take some people off and add new people, but it's also nice to see people who we have stayed in touch with year after year, and to add new friends to the invite list as well.

On Wednesday I did my first circus class (my friends and I signed up for a 2 session taster) at the local circus training ground.  It was so much harder than I remember it - we did conditioning which I found tiring and then tried to climb silks and go on a aerial hoop.  

I wrote some blog posts about circus skills here, with videos from 2013 of me doing aerial ropes and silks.  This time I couldn't climb the silks at all.  Maybe I'll be better next week.  The teacher was the same and recognized me from 12 years ago.  Sometimes it feels really weird to have lived in the same place (mostly) for 12 years.

On Thursday (today) I met my gym buddy for morning gym and then was in work all day. I've handed off most of my old role now and have started to get stuck-in to the new role. It's so fun to have space to think.  BUT I am definitely not accomplishing things as fast as I hoped I would, and I'm starting to learn the limits of my own data analytics skills.  I'm enjoying learning new things, and I know I'll only improve.  

I meant to do a live strength class on Peloton today but then I accidentally scheduled a meeting at the same time.  Oops!  So instead I went out for a midday walk.  I've been in the bad habit of sitting in my office all day from 8:30am to 5pm and only leaving to make myself an omlette or other big meal around 10:30am.  I really need to get a handle on my food/eating situation.  Mostly, I need to eat food at the right time, ie the morning and possibly other times in the day.

Anyways, I realized I had missed my opportunity for a fitness class so I went for a walk instead, because I knew I could then be a minor part of the cool bloggers walking club! I couldn't find anything great to photograph so I said hi to these chickens and figured that was cool blogger-y enough for a walk?

This weekend is a busy one as well - tomorrow we have a playdate in the morning, and friends are coming over for dinner.  On Saturday we're going to the pumpkin patch (yay!) and to a friend's house for a sausage party (as in, they have a lot of sausages).  Sunday my oldest turns 7! He is going out with a friend (and Andy) to a local science museum which means I have toddlers & Lily all day.  Will have to make a plan....

Have you ever taken circus lessons?  Do you have any neighbourhood chickens? Do you carve pumpkins and/or have you ever thrown a pumpkin carving party?

Race Recap!

Today was race day.

I felt pretty OK yesterday evening and even managed to eat a decent dinner and get to sleep on time-ish.  This morning I had a egg bagel for breakfast and cycled down to the race start at 8:30.  UK races start so much later than US ones - this half started at 10.  Weather was surprisingly nice, not raining (yay) but I wasn't feeling super energetic.

I forgot to bring my water belt or my jelly babies (run snack of choice) which was a bummer.  I had remembered to make a half marathon playlist though.  It was mostly Imagine Dragons and and Taylor Swift.

I got into my pen at 9:30.  30,000 people run the half marathon in Cardiff - it's BIG.  I hung around with the 2:15 pacer and we finally started moving towards the start line at 10:15am.

Starting Pen Selfie

I *really* needed a wee at the start, and in a stroke of genius planning there were porta potties right before the start tunnel that had a very short queue.  I ran out of the starting funnel, had a quick wee, and made it back with the 2:15 pacer still in sight.  

Starting line - amazing portapotties just to the right

I was so excited at the start of this race but rather quickly wished I had water or some sugar.  Luckily there were lots of spectators giving out candies and jelly babies so I started searching for something easy to digest.  I knew there was a gel at mile 6 and water at mile 3, so picked up a water bottle and ran with it from mile 3 onwards.

I was feeling good until about mile 5, when I started feeling less good.  I had somewhat gotten in my head about running so close to being ill... on Saturday I was feeling super groggy and wondered if perhaps I had covid, and then wondered if perhaps I would die from Myocarditis, but googling told me that only 1 in 100,000 men and .2 in 100,000 women have heart attacks during half marathons.  Since there were only 30,000 runners this meant the chance is more like 0.06% which seemed small enough.  

At mile 9 I saw a medic running with a defibrillator and a person with pink running shoes getting CPR.  I don't know what happened, I hope they are OK. (edited to add: according to the news the woman did have a cardiac arrest but survived and is recovering in the hospital)

I reminded myself that the number one goal of this race was to finish without injury.  I could tell that if I was able to push my pace I would have made it in under 2hr 20.  But, I didn't want to push.  I had spent 1hr 45 minutes with a heart rate of 180 and maybe I was too in my head, or maybe I was being sensible, but I slowed down and just kept moving.

My chip time at the end was 2:24:23.  This is a PB by 40 seconds, which feels a bit... meh. I guess it's better than missing a PB by 40 seconds?  

I took a photo at the end.  I felt very tired and a bit sick, probably because of all the jelly babies I had eaten (also the half marathon)

Then I had to cycle home, which was 4.5 miles and felt like about a hundred.

Andy meanwhile had a very cute but very high energy day with the kids on adventure, and like a champion he kept managing the kids after I got home because I was so tired and had a headache and generally felt a bit "meh" for the rest of the day.

I did cook a roast chicken dinner, and did double big kids bedtime.  I wasn't *completely* useless, but it was a much different homecoming than 2013, where we went to a bar and then watched TV for the rest of the day.

I'm not sure road half marathons are my thing.  I am still keen to do more running but I'm wondering if maybe I would enjoy trail running more. It would be cool someday to be able to run a faster half marathon, maybe, but I'm definitely not feeling the urge to sign up for any more road races soon.

It's mountain biking season now anyway.

In case you want a recap of my last half marathon, I apparently blogged one in 2013. I think I've gotten a tiny bit more sensible since then.

Friday downer post - terrible race prep, depressing UK news, and a few happy things at the end.

Last week I did an accidental taper week, where I didn't do any of my planned running.  Then I ran a really unpleasant 9 miles on Sunday, although the last mile was walking because I felt completely out of energy.

I've been using the Peloton app half marathon programme, which is cool because the instructors talk  about running and strategy and fueling etc.  The big message from last week was "don't overtrain, get sleep, follow the low mileage plan, eat well, prep yourself for your race next week!"

So I bought some good healthy protein rich foods, scheduled my few shortish runs, and went to bed early on Sunday.

Since Sunday, my sleep has been as follows:

7:30pm to 5am.  The pink boxes are awake time.

Apparently two nights of up-ever-hour kid sickness threw me straight back to newborn nighttime insomnia.

On Wednesday morning Clara was ill in her crib.  So far only Aubrey and I have avoided the actual voms, but I have felt generally terrible this week and the nighttime insomnia is not helping.

I haven't done any running this week, and yesterday my great fueling consisted of a handful of pretzels for breakfast and a bowl of carbonara for dinner.

Basically, this feels like about the worst race prep one could plan.  I'm trying to put a positive spin on it though, because if I can run a half marathon while being ill and underfed and on very little sleep then maybe I can run a longer race someday?  Arguably this running hobby of mine was supposed to be fuelled  by the relentless effort of having newborn twins.  I don't have newborn twins, so I should be able to run this race. 

I was kind of hoping that becasue I had put in training this half marathon would be fun and feels somewhat good. Having newborn twins isn't fun and doesn't feel good, so perhaps this kind of race prep is the best I could hope for, and very fitting with my own motivation and personal experience

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OK, now this post is going to take a somewhat dark turn.

I sometimes feel like I am living on a different world than my American blogger friends.  They/you(?) often talk about the weight of the world and things happening and I honestly don't always know what these things are.  I wonder if it's because of the news sources we have... I read the BBC mostly.  It could be that stories which are posted a little on the BBC are posted a lot on American news sites.  

For instance the tragic floods at the summer camp last summer was written about in the BBC, but it wasn't everywhere.  It was horrific, but it didn't necessarily feel ever-present.  I wonder if that's because of living over here.

Yesterday, during Yom Kippur, two Jewish people were murdered outside a synagogue in Manchester.  It is big news over here.  It is really horrific.  

I grew up Jewish, and I never questioned raising my children with the lovely religion I remember.  We have been going to kids club at the local synagogue on and off for a few years.  

I have always felt that the UK, and perhaps Wales, is more anti-semitic than I'm used to.  When I first got here I told someone I'm Jewish and he said "Oh I'm sorry!" which I thought was odd.  I was told many times "oh wow, I've never met a Jewish person before" but I always felt that it was important to be who I am and not "hide" being Jewish.

Growing up in America, I took it for granted that it was safe to be Jewish.  It is starting to feel like a big decision to raise children with a religion and history that might make them a target someday.  They have a generic British surname, and they look generically British.   Maybe that's an opportunity for safety that I shouldn't take away from them.  

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I don't really have any good segue here, but there are happy things too. 

pre-circus selfie

• I took the big kids to the circus last week, before everyone got ill.
  
  
• I started putting fall decorations up around the house
• The Girl Next Door podcast fall Extravaganza!
• Sickness is probably done circulating around our house
• Next week is a normal 4 day week of childcare (we didn't ask our nanny to come into our infected home this week)
• I'll be done with the half marathon next week! Even if it sucks, it will be over
• I'm starting arial ropes, silks & trapeze lessons with my friend this month.  
• It's October. There is good in October.  We won't be ill and I won't be awake all night forever.
• I don't have newborn twins. 

What's the worst run or race or bike ride you've ever done?  Bring me some schadenfreude please.

Good news, less good news, remote work in times of illness, one more summer read.

Aubrey the Artist

In good news, Lily is feeling much better today.  She spent most of the day lying down, although she did walk to the store with Andy to get tomato soup for dinner.

In less good news, Andy woke up with a stomach bug at 2am and was out of action most of the day (although he did still help with afternoon kid stuff and dinner, when I started to fade at 3pm due to being up with Lily almost hourly until 2am)

In good news, I went to a cute play group today with the twins (should I be out when people at home are ill? Am I a super spreader? I don't know.  Twins seemed fine) and a childminder told me how amazing our Nanny is.  I think she's amazing, but it's always good to hear from others too.

In less good news, Ezra said he didn't feel well at dinner and proceeded to be sick.

In good news, 50% of my kids can reliably be sick in buckets or toilets and not on the floor!

In less good news, Ezra is off school for two days now.  Lily can go back on Thursday.  Ezra can go back on Friday.

In good news, before Ezra got ill he passed his swimming test and he's now a "green level" swimmer.

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I really have no idea how this week is going to go.  If the twins get this then our life will really go south for a bit.  If the twins have it when I have it then that will be very south.  If I get it after the twins then I probably can't do my half marathon on Sunday.

I'm supposed to be doing some shake out and taper runs this week.  That's obviously not happening (the runs.  I am hopeful I will get to run the half)

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This morning I put up an out of office and haven't checked back at any work stuff.  I didn't cancel any meetings.  I just wasn't there.  Remote work feels so odd sometimes.  I *really* want to be in work and I'm so excited about my new job.  I am terrible at doing things halfway and I knew I wouldn't be able to focus on kids if I allowed myself to check my work computer.  I know work will be there later, but I would love to have more things sorted and arranged before I take a bunch of unpaid leave to cover family illnesses (I'm aware there is potential for me to be off through Friday now, with the quantity of kids and the quantity of sick)

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It's 8pm.  Time to do some more reading and get some sleep, who knows what chaos tonight will bring (hopefully just sleep)

On the plus side, I'm enjoying a 7 day copy of One Golden Summer by Carly Fortune

A Day in the Life - Annual Leave Monday

I was on annual leave today since our Nanny is currently on holiday.  I figured I would do a DITL post but I did not do great at taking photos of the cuter moments... so here goes!

6:05am walk up, go downstairs and have coffee, work on time log, pack kids lunches.  

6:30am Ezra comes downstairs, Aubrey is awake and Andy brings her downstairs, quickly finish the Lily's August photos for her album.

7:00am Andy starts breakfast, I get Clara & Lily up and dressed

7:40am Start laundry and handover kids breakfast from Andy.  Make scrambled eggs because the big kids have each eaten a whole bagel and are asking for more food.  Quickly eat 2 eggs on a bagel because I'm trying to eat protein for breakfast (and also to eat breakfast)

8:00am Tidy up breakfast, everyone goes upstairs to brush teeth.  

8:30am Leave for school on time! Then have to turn around and go home because both kids forgot jackets

8:40am Leave for school again.  Have to hurry

8:55am School starts.  I've arranged a double play date for the afternoon - Lily and Ezra are both having a friend over.  I confirm pick up details with parents and teachers.

I've been working on a project to get rid of clothes and I had a super cute halloween outfit from when Lily was small and I saw a baby at school drop off and gave it to their mum and hopefully she didn't think it was too weird.

Lily was not the most photogenic

9:15am Back home, change twin nappies, get the twins in the car, drive to play group

9:45am I recently found a new Monday play group at a slightly further away church.  It has the absolute best cake of any group and this morning did not disappoint.  I had a cup of tea and a brownie, and then later a slice of lemon cake because I paid for 2 kids so I get 2 cakes right?  The twins played with cars and enjoyed snack and story.  

11:30am Home from play group. Twins play in the house while I make lunch (scrambled eggs, because they didn't have eggs for breakfast).  I also make a list of dreams for what I want to accomplish during naptime, and also add estimates of times because I knew I probably wouldn't have time for it all

11:50am Twin lunch.  I start to make muffins for snack during the play date later

12:15 twins in bed.  Time to tackle this mess:

12:30 Eat a classic mom-lunch: scrambled eggs with siracha.  Yes, this is my second egg based meal of the day. Oops

12:45 Muffins are done, as is the bread Andy put on this morning.

12:50 Often times I spend too much of nap tidying up so I set a 20 minute timer and manage to sort the kitchen and hall and dining room, including hoovering.  But the living room still looks like this, which is probably fine because it would look like this later.  Not pictured - hanging out laundry

1:15 Go upstairs to do a 30 minute yoga video.  It was great.  My hips were sore from my run yesterday (ill advised 10 mile run where I mostly ran out of steam at mile 8 and totally ran out at mile 9).  I remember that I need to make dinner during nap time as well.

1:50pm quick pick up of Ezra's room.  Bring laundry down from air drier into bedroom

2:00pm Start dinner prep.  Making tuna stuffed shells from my new favourite cookbook of family friendly meals

2:30pm Done!

2:35pm Sit down to have a quick salad before it's time to pick up kids.  Make two boring life admin phone calls. Day take a turn when....

2:40pm School calls to tell me Lily has just been ill in class and needs to be picked up.  I had been warned that there is a virus circulating her class right now.  I ask the school if I can also pick up Ezra (since school ends at 3:30 anyways, and if Lily is ill she's not going to want to walk to school pick up.  The school says they will get both kids.  I quickly wake up twins and walk to school and call both playdate parents to let them know we have to postpone.

3:00pm collect Lily and Ezra from school.  Lily is out for at least 48 hours.  Ezra is very sad to not have a play date today

3:10pm Arrive home. Lily says her stomach hurts, then proceeds to vomit on the kitchen floor.  Tile is such a good choice! I panic and clean it up with dish towels because that was all I could reach.  Lily makes it to the bathroom while I ask Ezra to sort out snack for himself and Aubrey & Clara. He does an amazing job, he's only 6 and managed to get them each a muffin and peel and distribute satsuma slices.  I call Andy and ask him to come home from work.

3:20pm put Lily in the bath.  Try to keep Lily separate from everyone else.  Wash my hands 100 times.

3:45pm Andy gets home and takes the twins and Ezra to the park

4:00pm Lily is still being sick often. She also watches some spider man TV show

4:05pm I tidy the kitchen... again.

4:15pm sort and put away laundry.  Empty kids backpacks.  Put dinner in the oven.  Bring in laundry from outside.  Empty dishwasher.  Light my new autumn candle I got from Homesense (£30 marked down to £9!)

5:30pm Settle Lily upstairs, everyone else has dinner.

6:10pm Twin bathtime.  Andy does twin bed.  I help Lily, who falls asleep around 6:45.

7:00pm Ezra shower and bedtime.  He reads me a story

7:30pm Ezra lights out.  Andy has cycling on a monday, so I go downstairs to tidy up the dinner dishes, lounge, kitchen, and dining room again.

8:30pm Lily is awake again.  I finish the last load of Laundry

Then I reply to some texts and order new stick on labels for the kids school clothes. Lily lays down in my bed while I write this long blog post

9:45 finish writing this blog post.  There were lots of interruptions (Lily's stomach hurts... another water, a slide of toast, the toast was not a good idea, laying down on the sofa, laying down in bed).  

And that was a day of annual leave from work!

I am of course very hopeful Lily feels better soon.  I am also very hopeful this doesn't spread through everyone in the house.  I also think it's highly likely that by Sunday (my Half Marathon) I will be suffering from a stomach bug.  But I'm trying not to worry about Sunday, because there are a lot of other days to make it through first.

When I go back to work tomorrow (Andy has the day off for kids, hopefully Lily will be well enough to have a calm day with the twins) people will ask me how my long weekend was.  I sometime struggle to reply.  I guess... good?