Things causing stress:
- My friends all being on different schedules. Holidays. The end of summer! the vast wasteland of time to fill, now filled, and feeling like I didn't catch up with people I hoped to.
- Gym drama. I don't like drama. As unfair as it feels, I will just have to be super careful that when we work out he never offers me help, or comments on my form. I will try and speak with the general manager next time we go, to hopefully clarify my position, but I don't have high hopes. My gym buddy emailed the gym and they replied with a long letter that included a note that they will be watching us train to make sure he's not coaching me, and I feel immensely uncomfortable know that we are being watched by staff in the gym.
- New Nanny starting. It's great to have help, but it's also a change. Twins need to get used to her, I need to get used to twins getting used to her. It hasn't been the magic "Rachel Freedom" I possibly hoped it would be
- Sleep. Always sleep. Last night I couldn't fall asleep. The night before I woke up randomly at 4:30am.
- Lilah finishing at the nursery we love. I miss them already.
- Lilah starting at a new nursery that will be fine. It is connected to the school. They all seem nice. But we chose a terrible day to start her settling in. She has another day for settling in tomorrow
- Not getting enough exercise (running & Peloton classes)
- Meal planning. So much food. So many requirements. Kid food, Grown Up Food, Baby food. so much food.
- Being on the no pay part of my maternity leave. I am lucky I was paid for so long, but a £0 paycheck is sad, even after 10 months of leave
- Starting back at work. I'm excited but there have also been a lot of changes at the company and my team seem understaffed, which means it's going to be a lot of work for me.
- Everything I sold recently on Vinted hasn't had updated tracking. The Post Office said they had an issue on saturday and nothing has gone out since, but I would really like my parcels sent
Things that are good
- I have had lots of play dates and caught up with lots of people. I haven't had many "I have nothing to do days"
- I love working out with my Gym Buddy and he is keeping me from spiraling during gym drama
- I think the new Nanny will be good. I need to give her time. She has made our house really clean.
- Sleep has actually been OK. Babies have slept until 5:30/6:00 recently.
- No more £600 a month nursery bills for Lilah
- I went for a 20 minute run this morning. I can schedule in some more running.
- Starting back at work. It will be good to use my brain.
- It might stop raining soon.
- I've continued to declutter. All my gym clothes now fit in the bottom drawer of my dresser. I have listed and sold some pieces on vinted. I sold my last two nursing dresses.
- I dropped off a bag of things at the baby bank
- I took Isaac to the eye doctor and his eyes are fine
- I got my hair dyed and it looks awesome (I mean, I can say this right?)
- Good thing sub point: I have decided that hair care goes under the "Misc" budget because I cut everyones hair in the house and they can't/don't cut mine so I have to pay, but that's an Andy problem. If he learned to cut & dye hair then I wouldn't need to pay for it)
- I am really enjoying reading Wedding People
- There is new Emily in Paris on netflix for when I ever get a chance to watch TV again
- Bad thing sub point - the Netflix Family Plan isn't a thing anymore apparently so I may need to get my own account.
Things that are great
My writing buddy came over this evening, as I was writing this post, and we talked for TWO HOURS and I have realized that I am in a massive transition, as are the kids, and transitions are hard. And writing buddies (who are real buddies, and not training me on being a writer, but helping me on being a human) are great.
Two random photos:
All my gym kit in one drawer! sorry for the terrible photo.
Isaac brought this home from holiday club. It is a list of the words he mustn't say in holiday club:
Poopy Pants
Poop Face
Poo
Stupid
Stupid Poopy Pants
Poop Face
Poo
The first rule of holiday club appears to be... Don't Talk About Poop. 😂 - Kat
ReplyDeleteWell apparently he was using unkind words. So then he made a list of unkind words to show the teacher all the words he knows he shouldn’t say…
DeleteI’m sorry about the gym drama. Without knowing their concerns, if you feel the things are unjustified and that you’ve explained your position - either they accept it or they don’t. They’ve already been monitoring you and you’ve explained your position. It seems a very grey area. I hope you get clarification on your position and are free to do your training as you wish.
ReplyDeleteThe gym thing is RIDICULOUS. I can only repeat myself. They cannot "monitor" if you talk to your friend. Can you go somewhere else? I wouldn't pay them a dime if they're being such jerks about paying members!
ReplyDeleteI still don't understand why you can't talk with him about exercises or form. That is NOT COACHING. GAH.
Thanks. I can understand that probably does look like he's training me, I guess because he is so much fitter than me. Now I don't know whether we are allowed to help each other rack weights? Or can he pass a weight to me? It's really hard to prove a negative, so I'm not sure how to *prove* he's not my trainer. And the idea of being monitored is so ick to me, I really want to leave, but my friend wants to stay because it is the best gym for him and we haven't done anything wrong. It all feels just... yuck.
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