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| Our garden is the perfect representation of how my current life organization feels |
One of my goals for next year is to get organized.
I feel like people say all the time "oh you are so organized" and while I do somewhat agree, I also feel like it's out of necessity and effort rather than a state of being.
Like when I am a runner or doing a half marathon I am not actually that fit, I am just a person who does a lot of running. That's how I feel about my planning right now... I'm not necessarily good at it, I just do a lot of it.
I carry a million things in my head all the time (which might be why my head kind of reaches its limit, and then instead of being nice to my kids I use all my brain resource to plan 100 meals and packed lunches and school pick ups... and so then when someone needs something (like basic human niceness) I don't have that thing because I already used up all my things with a million other things.)
And I know this is all a bit twee because there is a literal book about how to plan your life now but it's not out in the UK until Feb so blargh.
I started reading "Rest" recently because I probably need to. (I probably need to both rest and read the book Rest)
I've long realized that one of the problems with my current way of managing the million spinning plates is that it is highly dependant on my own steady state of productivity and emotional resilience. I am good at dropping balls and picking up balls and tossing balls and keeping things moving in the right direction while remembering that we need to add tunafish to the grocery order and also it's library day tomorrow and also holy crap am I good enough at my job to have gotten two promotions in a year and do they regret hiring me and are they going to go back to full time in office and should I just look for a new job now to avoid the slow process of being terminated...


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