This week was busy - I had another work trip to London & Leeds, which was good, but also this time some of my colleagues (who I like) came as well and so instead of eating dinner alone and sleeping early I went out to dinner and spent time with people and I am now feeling person-burned-out. Which isn't great because generally I like people, and I rarely ever see these colleagues in person, but I am just... tired.
On my first night my colleague asked me if I wanted to meet for breakfast and I told her I was going out to a cafe to do some journaling and planning and I would see her in the office. I think she gets it and wasn't offended. I don't get a lot of me time, and this is my "me time"
I went to my favorite cafe in the world and had my favourite breakfast and coffee and played with my planner and it was nice.
Also on this work trip, I got to go to a building while it was being built in London and go up to the 37th floor on one of those goods lifts on a building site and it was super fun and also a bit scary and also mostly amazing. I am an office person but I work for a company that works for companies that do building stuff and so they organized this trip as an all in day adventure.
Also I will share this blurry photo of my new work outfit. :
I bought this pair of shoes from Hush Puppies and they are actually pretty comfortable
Am I the most stylish person to ever enter an office? No I am not. But do I look office ready and have an office look now that I can replicate without stressing every time? Yes I think I do. I am pleased with office wardrobe refresh project.
Anyways, that was my Monday-Wednesday. Today I was tired and I had a big bag of "burn it all down energy". I spent part of the day complaining to my colleague that I was going to get fired (I'm not - but the problem is that I've entered the sort of "business efficiency" operational space, and my efficient mind believes that if I am not being efficient then the most business efficient thing to suggest is to not employ me), looking at other jobs, and then contemplating moving to the North of England. I'm not sure where this general sense of unrest has come from, but it's super uncool since everything is actually pretty good.
This evening I spent an hour sorting the house. I cleaned toilets (I know, I never clean toilets!) and then I updated the photo albums for January. One great thing about having a generally hard month (January) is that I took barely any photos and so the albums were super easy. Aubrey had 7 photos for the month.
It's February 12th and I have taken exactly 7 photos this month. There's only so much "here we are in the house while it's raining" that one can photograph. Also "here's a sick kid" doesn't make for good photo memories either.
Anyways, it's 9:30 and I am getting really into reading The Women and staying up too late because it's so compelling, which it obviously was going to be since everyone has been talking about how great it is for ages. So... I'm off to do some reading. And then some sleeping. And then more kid things.
Maybe I'll take more photos. or move to the North of England. Or quit my job. Although quitting would really be a waste of my new work wardrobe.
Are you suffering from February Ennui? Do you get major burn it down energy?
This passage really spoke to me: I spent part of the day complaining to my colleague that I was going to get fired, looking at other jobs, and then contemplating moving to the North of England.
ReplyDeleteI think we all go through this from time to time, no matter where we are or what we are doing! I think it can be for a myriad of reasons; maybe your brain needs a break from something, maybe life has been hard and it is just a bit of burnout, or maybe things are going great and our mind thinks that it can't be right and so we go on the hunt to figure out what we can change to avoid something happening. I feel the same at the moment, where I am feeling a bit of unrest. I am having trouble getting motivated to do certain things, so I am wasting time looking at campervans on the internet that I will not buy (at least not now!), and thinking of what I could be doing or where I could be going if I only had a campervan.
It is a waste of time on one hand, but on the other, it is good to stay abreast of what is out there and what your next dream may be! I think you just have to ride it out. Something will happen; the weather will get better, you'll have a great workout or sign up for an upcoming race, and you'll give up the job hunt and/or feeling of unrest. But maybe in a year or so, or at some point, you will actually want to quit and you will know what is out there!
Yep, this sounds like any given February workday during my working years. Been there, done that. The only bad thing that is going to happen for sure is that you will stay up too late reading The Women, and that is a sorry not sorry thing.
ReplyDeleteI did stay up too late reading The Women and then I couldn't sleep even though I stopped reading because I still wanted to be reading and now I am soooo tired.
DeleteRachel, I LOVE YOUR POSTS. They are hilarious and yet also hit right to the core of a woman's/mother's existence. PLEASE KEEP WRITING LIKE THIS FOREVER <3
ReplyDeleteLove the outfit and the rooftop view.
This is Lisa. I haven’t felt ennui this month but it could be around the corner at any moment. I had a busy work trip to NYC so I am also feeling peopled out! I enjoyed the people I spent time with but I am an introvert so work trips exhaust me! I am planning to retire early so trips like this just increase my desire to opt out of all of it.
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